Monday, March 21, 2011

Infatuated



Ok. I admit it.

Having a girl is not exactly the same as having a boy.

At first, I (tried to) believe that a baby girl invoked all the same feelings as a new baby boy did. It was "just another gorgeous newborn baby. The sex made no difference".

I've also told myself that the hugely adoring feelings I have towards miss Natalie are a result of being so much more relaxed and me really trying to enjoy the moments. All of these being a result of a bigger age-gap between #'s 2 & 3, and the boys being older and more independent etc.

But......

I'm ready to admit there may be more to it. All of the above are in fact true. All are very good reasons for my utter blissful state over the last 12 weeks. But I also have to admit they are not the only reasons.

There is something about the little girl which affects me in an indescribable way. I really wish I could describe it. It's an extra bond. A special protection for her that I feel. I can't help but melt a little everytime I dress her in a fresh clean shade of pink - or a dainty little dress which suits her pretty little face perfectly.

She's 12 weeks today and I'm a little bit sad. Ok, a lot sad. It's gone far too quickly. Time, please slow down. My little princess will be grown and gone off with her prince before I know it. And I'm just not ready. I want to kiss her pudgy little pale pink body for a while longer yet.

5 comments:

  1. Don't faint from shock but I am commenting.
    I just had to say what a brilliant job you are doing managing everything - I am sure you have your days but you are both making a big contribution at church, raising 3 wonderful children (so glad you are enjoying your little girl - you had nothing to worry about!!) and your post made me think of this quote from a Relief Society meeting.
    Cleaning and scrubbing can wait 'til tomorrow for babies grow up, we've learned to our sorrow. So quiet down cobwebs. Dust go to sleep. I'm rocking my baby and babies don't keep.
    In your case swinging with her!!!!
    Love you lot's,
    Larissa

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  2. I really enjoyed reading this Bev.... couldn't agree more. We see a tiny glimpse of how our Heavenly Father feels about his precious daughters.

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  3. Girls are just so special hey Bev. I so understand what you mean about that special bond with your little girl - I wonder if dad's feel that way with they little boy's at all, or if its just a mum thing. You DO look totally blissed out though - you look so so happy and have never looked more beautiful. So glad to see that having a little girl has brought an extra element of happy to you and your family, and really, with one soooooo cute, how could she not. She is ADORABLE!!!! We all want to kiss her cheeks and cuddle her little-ness, and make her smile. Great job mama and keep enjoying all your special moments! xxx

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  4. Ok so that comment was NOT from my husband but from me! hehehehhe

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  5. Hi Bev,

    Great post! I realize that you wrote this a while ago but I just had to comment.

    Maybe it is the third child. I feel the same way about my third except he is a boy :) I thought it was a mother/son bond (my first two are girls). Maybe I am just capable of a deeper love because of the struggles I've had with the first two (not that they are bad or we've had anything major, just the typical parenting stuff). I have matured a lot and I no longer see my children as "taking away" from me, I now see them as "adding" to me. I think that leaves me free to love more and not be bothered with all the work that comes with a baby.

    But whatever the cause, I am loving having a son and he is growing WAY to fast! I guess I'll just have to have another one :)

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